school was fine todayy.
got detention.
went for art remedial.
:DD yeahh. im sucha good gurl huh. ((x


baby came down.
AHA! ((:
baby, manda , cat and lionel pierced their lips.
OMG!
so nice cann!
den den den,
sat at staircase.

went t alter ma pants with cat.
den met baby,lionel and bj oppsite ma block.
chit-chatted.
home.





baby, im sorry.

school was fine todayy.
got detention.
went for art remedial.
:DD yeahh. im sucha good gurl huh. ((x


baby came down.
AHA! ((:
baby, manda , cat and lionel pierced their lips.
OMG!
so nice cann!
den den den,
sat at staircase.

went t alter ma pants with cat.
den met baby,lionel and bj oppsite ma block.
chit-chatted.
home.





baby, i've alr sacrificed everything for you.
for us, for our relationship.
andd wad i got back was disappointment.
and again,
im not ur friend.
yes, you can joke around and do wad u want sometimes.
but there's certain things u've t kno. you cant do.
i might be controlling you.
things happened the 1st tym,
and im not gonna let it happen again.
that's why. im always questioning you.
you're e one i loved.
im the one u loved.
there must be some limit,
i cant accept it all.
i wont blame you.
i cant.
and i will nvr.

eh bitch,
dont come here and talk rubbish la huh.
u're the smelly one larr.
go around and talk COCK!




anyways, kaku was over ma place jus now.
she wanted t pass me ma art file. bt ended up staying over.
ahahaa.
watched iron ladies .
was talking t baby at e same tym.((:


trimmed kaku's eyebrown.
ahaha.
so bored.
hate sundays.



will everything be fine?
will everything get back the same?
am i gng t cry everynight again?

ytd was our third month anniversary!


HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY BABY!
I LURVE YOUU! :DD *MWAKMWAKss.


didnt blog ytd cos was too tired.
hee.
yeaaps.
baby got me a eeore.(not sure if it spelt this way)
, a lil small piggy and a letter. :DD thannnnnkk YOU BABY!
and i got her a fourskin shirt,cheena card and a letter.((:


recap:
wahh! saw tht ginny. eeewwww.
disgusting.

anyway, was with baby , cat.lionel , manda.bj and michelle.ismadi.
lol.
4couples date.
forgot where we went.
but im very sure.
baby's gng t treat me very nice..
and for the rest of our life.((:

and today.
towned again.
at fareast,
we bought the same colored shirt but diff design.


andd t lido t eat.
baby met her friend.


den headed t cine.
baby met her another friend.
slacked outside cine.
manda chat with her friends.
cat and lionel went back.
den up t k pool.


den t graffiti cafe, marche,nydc.
LOL.
we jus went there.
WENT THERE.
walked there.
ended up at coffee club.
we were singing ,
wo..wo yao..wo yao ni..wo yao ni di ai..
blahh blahh.
haaha.
den cabbed home laa.


ahh!whyee ma baby still not home yet. :/


baby, when i look into your eyes,
i knew that i'd give ma heart t youu.((:


i feel so loved again.
so happy, so loved.

went t millie's house after school.
quarrelled with baby.


we've talked things out.
((:
i guess we're fine now.



baby, you're leaving me.

school was fine.

baby didnt come today.
*ARBISH!

terrible cramp.
heh.


im angry now.
very angry.
sad.
very sad.


feels very terrible.

guess im having pms.


WHY?!
not even YOU understand me.

sorry baby for hurting you.
i'll stop beating you k?
im sorry.


anyways, towned with baby.kaku.manda.bj.
bored ah.
blah
blah
blah
blah



when will the nightmares stop?

i know im a bother t you.
baby, you can choose your own path now.
i wont bother about you anymore.((:


school was lyk shit.
shagged fer e whole dayy.
gave attitude t ma gurls.
im sorry. )):

but erm,
anyways, thanks gurls.((:

went t tm after sch den t millie's house.
home.




crying for the nightmare i had everynight
thought it had already disappear
and im brought to the dreamland;
with lotsa love and concern.
but i've no idea wad i've done,
and again,
im back t the nightmare.


memorise are just lyk a dream.

who is the one who cried fer you everynight.
who is the one who always miss you so much.
who?



went SGH t see ma auntie.
omg.
her whole body swollen.
haii.


was with mummy and daddy t buy ma levis pants. ((:
den went t meet catnlionel.
bought ma stuffs.
MUAHA.((:
went home after awhile.
thanks fer your accompany guys.((:



there's the 1st tym,
there's the 2nd tym,
im sure there's a 3rd tym.

you choose your friends.
your friends.
is more important.
you said you wont leave me.
but you've chosen your friends.

nth. nth.
nth will happen.
take it as nth happen.
yeahh.


dont make me lose tht feelings.

i hate saturday.
cos i wont be able t see baby the next day.
i hate sunday.
cos i wont be able t see her on mon.
i hate mon.
hate tue.
wed.
thurs.
i LURVE fri. ((:


quarrelled with baby in tha morning.
until e afternoon.
LOL.

supposed t meet up with bj.
LOL.
forgot t call her.
SORR AH!


den kept discussing about where t go.
end up in town.
so was with baby.cat.lionel.
tht couple quarrelled.
but was fine after awhile larr.
saw aud and gurls.


took neos.
((:
went t lido t eat.
lionel lyk hungry ghost sial.
kept doing tht FACE.
lol.
laughing our ARSE off cann!


den home sweet home.

imissthtbigbabywithbigbutt.>.<



hold me close.
dont ever let go of me.

neither will i.

late today again.
hahaa.


met up with cat.lionel.kaku.manda.
well, millie msged me and said tht "someone" asked her t go steady.
hahaaa.
ma lil millie!
OH MA GOD!
well, headed t town.
met up with baby.bj.michelle.

supposed t go t k box.
but it was full house.
so we went t watch movie.
caught "OMEN".
nahh. not scary.
but its meaningful.
HAHA! I CRIED.


den t heeren.
wisma; coffee club.
k pool.
saw andreas.kel.alv.bs.ko.
went downstairs t look fer michelle's stead.
she went back.

went t some place t eat.
saw those guys again.

baby is singing on tha phone now.
LOL.

eerrr.
ya. den smth happen larr.
bt settled.
went back t tamp.
slackk.
den home.
i saw 3stars in a row again.


baby, i feel so loved. ((:
i wanna watch the stars and moon with you everynight.
andd the rest of ma life :))

school was fine.
one ex changkat malay guy came back t help for our art.
((:
so cute.
hahaaaaa.


went fer history remedial.
waste ma time.
bj was waiting outside fer manda.
baby didnt come todayy. )):
so went back home with kaku n millie.



yupp.
im so freaking stress eh.
RAHH!!!!!




isit so difficult t lurve me?
i dont blame u.
wad i've said,
dont seems t help.
wadd u want me t do?
im sorry i've got u hurt.
into so many pieces.
which your heart just left one.



i hurt even more. fer hurting you.

OMG!
the screen is getting worst.
HAHAA.
wah lan eh.
still dont wanna come online.




didnt go for the physic remedial.
hahaaa.
=x
we ran infront of the teacher cann?



anways, met baby at kfc.
lionel and bj came ltr.
went ta eat.
den t sun plaza park.
hahaa.
swing swing swing~~~ ((:


den sat under block.
on the floor pls.
LOL.
den went home afterr awhile larr.



slowly,
will the feelings
fade away?

* i swear andd i promise.
baby,
you made ma life.
im sure,
tht one day will come.




kaku's eyes hurt forr the whole dayy.
hope you're okay now, sweets((:


babyy.millie.manda.cat&lionel came over t ma house.
watched VCDs. :DD
manda seems shag ya.
hope u and your bee fine now yeahh. ((:




baby,
hurt me backk.



i wanna walk in tha rain alone.
so tht no one knows im crying.

it's so hard t accept when someone told u tht u've changed.


stayed at home the whole dayy.
i mopped the floor andd wiped the windows.
HAAHAAA.
mommy's girl. :DD




you said i've changed
over and over again.
it hurts me totally.
let me tell u.
i've not.
im still crying everynight.
for youu.



my love for u will nv change.

back frm town.waiting ferr baby t online.
HURRY!


i was so late.
manda.cat.lionel were waiting fer me downstair.
sorry peeps.
haaahaa.
=xx


met baby.bj at somerset control.
went ta eat.
den accompany lionel t lido.
den t far east.


well,
couples spent time quarrelling there
one by one.
)):
haii.


weijing came and meet me forr awhile.
took neos.
den dinner'd.
den back t cine.


wahlao!
we saw ghost in tha toilet cann?
shouting lyk madd.
3ofus went in the same cubicle.
LOL.


home'd.
sorry baby fer staying u behind.
and missed the train.
)):




sorry baby,
for treating you so badly.
im trying very hard not t scold u and showing you attitude anymore.
give me some time.
let me try.
im sure i can do it.

sorry.
i shouldnt have treated u this wayy.
sorry tht i've cried.
sorry ferr every single thing.
sorry may mean nth t you.
but i seriously mean it.




let me know,
if one day,
you dont love me anymore.

i just think of you.

im back back.
from school.
from town.
muaha.


met up with manda.cat&lionel.
waited ferr bj.DARLING andd funny shell at somerset.
LOL.
yaa.

went ta coffee club.
okay.
kaku said. she wanted t eat coffee pie.
MUAHAHA! X))
tht was in class.


shell's andd his friends were there too larr.
yupp.


anyway, i've shown LOTSA attitude t baby todayy.
)):
sorry ya.



pool'd.
we took neos! ((:


cat.lionel went back.


shell andd her hubby went t somewhere else.
baby.me.manda.bj went t this place which i duno wadd.
yeahh.
the food was great. :DD


baby sent me home.




i dont know why.
i just find tht something is missing.
i just think tht you dont love me anymore.
the feelings....
is fading awayy.
so far.
so high.
tht i couldnt reach.

SCHOOL was fine todayy.
i slept lyk errrr.
every period larr.
YAWN !
eeeeeeee.
i dont lyk ma class tht malay girl.


went t mac afta school.
cat went t meet lionel.
den all of us went home.
nth much todayy.



the words keep coming into ma mind.
i cried.
ferr myself. ferr you.
i dont understand.
im confused.
im lost.
why must u said those words t me?
why must u hurt me over andd over again.
all i can do is cry.
yes. cry.
no one understands.

i just realise,
i cant scold anyone whenever im angry.
shag-


2.4 today.
i ran THA LAST ONE!
heh.


after school,
went t taka fer some duno wadd stuffs larr.
was with manda n cat.
saw gab andd friends.


slack at rocky before gng t taka.
yea.
STOMACHACHE AH! )):



i know i've turn into a monsterr.
i know i shouldnt have scolded your friends.
i know i shouldnt have break ma promise.
i know im in tha wrong.
let the world blame me den.
i made everything single thing goes wrong.
im not myself.
she said i've change.
im sad. i cried. i yell.

so sorry tht i've treat u this wayy.
so sorry im not who u want me t be.


eyes turned swollen.
heart sank deeper.
pain got stronger.
feelings got further.


those words hurt me so deeply.

PUA PEH KIA AH!! chao chee bye!
KNN LARR.
dig your own PUSSEY! __
SI PU BOR!


went t town with manda n cat.
ate yoshi.
LOL.
saw kelly.
mine's and manda's came.
BLEHHH!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
went ta heeren.
saw plynn.
lionel came.
den .
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
NABEI!

den went home larr.
so boredd.
I SAW SO MANY SHUAI GE AH!
HORR MANDA?! ((:


OKAY LARR, I STILL "QUITE" ANGRY LEHH. ((:


I THINK I SHOULD PREPARE FOR THE WORST.
NO IDEA WAD U GONNA DO NEXT.


OH MA SEXYAY BABEHHH.~~~ im mad.((:

just got back frm millie's place. :DD

test cancelled.
shucks.
im so lazy t study pls.
hurhurrrrrrrr.

anyways,went t tm after school with ma gurls.
mine came. ((:
after awhile, cat's. ((:
den manda's.((:
waited fer shell fer lyk 1hr plus cann.
aiYOHH!
we bought "art of the devil" vcd.
lol.
it's NC16.
so cool right. :DD

all of us watched it at millie's place.
kinda bloody.
-puke-
so eeeeeee.
hahaa.


have a great fun over there.
shell huh tht huh funny huh gurl huh.
andd tht manda horr.
tht couple huh keep burping non-stop. LOL.
and mine huh. duno do wad kinda sound.
LOL.
omg. must let u guys hear nxt tym.
okayy.
manda teaches us.
LOL.
IM LEARNING HUH.((:


dinner'd at her place larr.
so sweet of her mum.
heee.
cook'd fer us.
YUMMEY~


den she sent me home.
andd the couples went home.
yeahh. :DD


you made ma day, babyy.((:
make ma life in future. :DD

school tmr agn.
anyone has feathers t borrow?
lol.
need tht fer art.
- . ^

stupid com.
nehh nehh.
the screen color changed totally.
im turning blind.
#.#


i dont want anything t fall us apart.
i jus want us t be happy.
as long as we're tgt,
i have everything i need.
ilu*

BT waited fer me at ma house downstair. :DD
met manda at cheers.
den t popular t buy ma stuffs.
met catnlionel.
lunch'd at foodcourt.

waited fer bj at orchard control.

went t lido t buy movie tickets.
YAY!
caught "SEED OF CHUCKY" (if im nt wrong abt the tittle((:)
yeaa.
nice larr.
shocking.
lol.


before watching, we went t cine.
den t lips.

den back t lido.
was raining.
:DD

when we were at the underground,
WALKING TOWARDS T THE MRT STATION,
got this nehh nehh char bo bang me eh.
i kno i bang on her the 1st time.
HEY! I DID SAY SORRY!
den she bang on me again.
her bf was starring at me.
POKE YOUR EYES AH.
laugh laugh laugh.
DIG YOUR THROAT AH!
QI SI REN.
nehh nehh POK!
> (

k lar.
den t ps.
ate at kfc.
met nat.
den saw enrico and emil and friends larr.

den t mac.
slack.
den t foodcourt.
eat.
slack.
HOME. :DD
SO FUNNY PLS.



i really hope this not gonna end. ((:

who cares. #))

back frm town.

went t police cantonment this morning.
waste ma time only.
was with ma dad.millie andd her mom.
we ate BURGER KING!
nice auntie treated me.
thank you. :DD



den t queenstown t fetch BT.
lol.new wordd t guess. ((:

went t her hs.
took cab t town.

met up with manda n bj.

catnlionel went t take neos.
saw ian.
hahaaa. lao yang zi.


back t cine. .rocky.
slack.
eeeeeeeee. saw tht gurl. -points-
talk talk talk.
saw gerry.


toilet. denHOMEEEEEEE. :DD
im so tireddd.


yes. i still envy.
can you see anything?
can you feel anything?

im back frm BB's house.
ahahaa.


yay! nt gng t school tmr.
should be in town tmr. :DD


gonna have ma chicken wings ltr.
*slurppp!




how i wish i could spend every mins andd secs with you. ((:

im SO tired.
whyee huh?
:T


eee. i dont lyk miss ling.
her voice damn sharp.


TM afterr school.
bj came t fetch manda.
lionel came t meet cat.
kaku n millie left hrs laterr.
and im lyk so left out walking with the two lovely couples.
[[=



pretty manda sent me home.
thanks sweettay. :DD


maybe i shouldnt have said anything at all.
maybe i shouldnt have thought about it at all.
it's not getting right.
im outta ma mind.
im scaredd.
im lost.
i hate it.


i was thinking otherwise.
again.
i was wrong.


maybe you've chosen smth.
which i may not know.
but you know,
you didnt bother.
really hurts me.


i envy people.
why there's no one envys me.


maybe i'll just wait.
wait and wait.
i'll be waiting.
waiting foreverr.

pls larr huh.
dont be sucha loserr.

2ndd dayy of school.
teaching starts todayy.

time passes very quickly larr.


i still hate mr goh.

went t mac with cat.millie.manda.
kaku went ferr her co.
shell went t meet her steadd.


yeahh.
saw tht girl..
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyerrrr.

mr farty and BB came t meet us.
manda went back.

backk t millie's place.
i slept fer AWHILE
really AWHILE larr.

her dad came back.
he hate me. i kno.
lol. i kno larr.

den went back larr.
so boredd.


you didnt do what i hope u t do.
you didnt say what i always wanted you t sayy.
i cried.
over andd over againn.

i dont know.
can someone nice t take this pain awayy?
why is everyone lying t me?
yes. everyone.

uh huh.
first dayy of school.
thought will be a bad dayy.
im WRONG!
hahahaaa.
kinda fun.


old friends are so FARNEY!
omg.

sulaiHA!
muahahaha! -.-


i don lyk the teachers.
hurrrr!


school changed. teachers changed.
people changed.


stress.
damn hell stress.

mrs chan: 8more months. bear with it. 8 more months, andd you'll be free.



OMG!

hope i can really study larr huh!



i hope it'll continue t be tha same.

we're drifting apart.


ma wife called me.
sorry i couldnt make it ya.)):
andd yes, thanks wife for last night.:DD

and i think it's time for me t return the heart back t you.

school tmr.
*YAWN.




i didnt know.
i dont know anything.
i didnt know i've hurt you.
im sorry.
i didnt know what im doing now.
i dont know.
im so lost.

bacck frm dez's place.
woke up and met cat n lionel at clementi.


dinner'd at yoshi.
OMG!
stupid jokes.
hahahaaaa.
laugh laugh laugh -BANGS-
ma head knock on the wall.
lol.



den home larr.
yawnn.
wahhhhhhhhh piang.
1more fucking days t school.
-biteeeeees-



we're so nearr yet so farr.

sorry. all i wantt t say was sorry.

im back from ma cousin's wedding dinner.
:DD
met dez.cat.lionel andd weijin.
sat at meridien foodcourt.
we didnt went forr countdown.
dunoo whyee.
lol.

anyways,
HAPPY NEW YR 2005!!
town was pack'd.
lotsa bangalah.
omg~! they were lyk so mad cann.
kena spray'd ferr nth.
lol.

suppose t catch meet the fockers.
bt there was no more tickets avail.
)):

went up t kpool.
waited ferr lyk quite long larr.

met yimin ferr awhile.

t dez's place.
yeahh.
now im at her place larr.
sitting beside meyyyyyyyyy.
:DDDDD


stay with me. ((: